ReALise

i never think i had do the wrong,
but now i realise, i had!
i have done a big mistake,
mistake i am not explain everything,
and i just wana to help people,
but they never realise,
they will only said all was my fault,
now i understand,
and i was regret!

Now i can said we can not 100% trust people,
even lover or friends,
cause i just realise,
and i saw and heard it!
then i learned,
however we said the truth,
no one will believe it..

Ooo God,
you are only one know what is going on,
you give me a change to see,
how they get their consideration for what had they done,
and me too..
then i realise, you are very powerfull!

now i realise what is going on here,
i learned from mistake,
i am not perfect,
thank god and my friends that had supporting me,
i will try my best to change all the mistake..

Challenging Day

i am so stupid..
i just realise that!
i am regret to tell
my feeling,
my story,
what is going on..
u have two choice to believe,
but you prefer choice another way,
choice a way that he/she doesn't no,
they believe that,
and not believe that what had happen to you,
i just wana to tell what is my real feeling,
but for others,
that is a blame and abuse,
tell our feeling is a natural affair..
all of us will...
that is not nasty affair..

i am really sincere tell my feeling to you,
i believe on you,
sincere be friend with you,
i just wana to tell you what is my real feeling,
but you take advantage on me,
why...
i really dissopointed,
really,
really,
really,
why...
please tell me why!
i never think negative about you,
i really appreaciated that you are my friend!!
im glade to have you,
but,
why...
why...
i never bad with you!!
why..
why..
why..
infornt of you, i feel i am played by you!
u choose to believe him,
i am not curious,
because i know,
this will happen,
because for all,
i am a bad fellow,
they are true of everything..

why god!!!
tell me,
you are the only one knows everything,
you know i am not perfect,
but why..
if i do not make the mistake,
the person will said was me!!
why!!
why!!!
why!!!!
when i was primary school until now!
they would say i done it!!
why..
how i want to make them to believe me?
please give me perseverance go through of this....
please god!
All of that were a nightmare for me,
i am not easily to forget all of this,
will save in my mind,
please help me god..
i need you, always!!
never forget about you..

LOVER

Lover?
im so confused,
i hated to have a serious relationship,
its just put me in trobble,
crying,
sadness,
dissapointed,
fool,
ahhhhhhh......
BUt,
sometime it's sweet,
happy all the time,
gorgeous,
he is the only one,
he is the only one that u can hope for help..
he is a part of me,
But when you are in a relationship,
what others think about you,
rumous is everywhere,
rejected by family because
he is too old for u,
he is too young for u,
he do not have any future!
im so confused,
what should i do,
i feel lonely,
i wana to get marry,
i wana care by him,
i wana accompony by him,
goshhhhh...
what is going on with me..
who should i looking for?
i do not dare to tell anybody about my story,
what they will think about all of this!!!
no ones knew it..................................

SaD MaTteR

Today is my day(driving text).. i am not ready for this, because i always forget about the text! firstly i am very happy because i had pass in the road( Hill, parking and the 3 junction).. but when on d road, i feel nervous and forgot all the tutor that had teach me before.. Unfortunately i had make mistake! ow, such a bad day today! Apparently i need to pay and text againt!

HOHOHOH!!! i must pass by next thursday, because by d end of june, i will back to kl.. i have no time to take againt! Well, although i failed, but this failure giving me an instruction and i have learned from the mistake! Hope i will not do the same mistake againt! All together, i had spend 1600++(almost 1700).. ow, such a big price yeah! Sorry MOM, DAD.. i know u guys feel disappointed! Erm, please forget all this ok, be happy yar! Love u guys.. :)

Oh my good! Weather really scorching today, i am sweating all day!! And sunbathing too.. that's ok, not always too... WAHAHAHA...

Lazy Girl

hey, u know what.. i really lazy wana to post any comment here despite i have nothing to do all the time! feel really bored too... Every day chatting and dreaming!! hahaha.. not always! don't worry! Every day after i am finished my work, then i will back home, just watching tv o movies that i had searching from the internet! i am a person who is not interest to read newspaper, but i always force myself to read it! (sometime, not every day) Apparently i need to change the bad habit! haha.. Now in process!

today, im blogging a website, i really fall in love with d blog(The Sartorialist).. i really enjoyed reading it! But im still not finished reading all.. haha.. i love d way d models dressed and the background too!! hahaha.. But d problem is the style seen like suitable for the white fellow!! can i wear like that at Malaysian? Some can, some can't! but the problem is where can i wear like that! U wan to know why? becauseee my body type not the perfect as model! huhu.. they are too thin! i think they less eating! And i love eating and really enjoy eating!! but still can control not be fat.. i think im not thin and not fat.. hahahaha!! Maybe...

I feel sleepy rite now, wana to sleep! Good night guys...

Just like a PRO

"i love this article, this article that i had read from CLEO magazine..
i wana share with all my friends.."

THOU SHALT...

• be at work during working hours. try not to stroll in late, go for retail therapy after lunch or scoot off early to meet your boyfriend.

• Start on assingnments immediately and not delay till the very last minute.

• Dress for success. you don't need a wardrobe that resembles the ladies department at the store - just look well-groomed and appropriately dressed.

• leave your moods at home. avoud PMS tantrums and the like. always be cool-headed and businesslike

• be dependable. keep ypur promises and carry out your duties.

• be a reassuring presence. speak knowledgeably, work quietly and well

• Not expliut your femininity. although you can get your way this way, don't -it's sneaky

• be above reproach. don't even pinch the office teabags.

• not be overcome. bounce back from criticism or failure

• find a way. if a problem occurs, don't just stand there, quickly think of something!

jAIL iN Austria

Oh my god!!!

they are too enjoy and lucky to have that!

their life in jail are too comfortable!

they do not deserve that..

if like this, villain must be increase in this world to get in there..

FEEL BETTER AFTER BACK FROM KK

i feel great after i had back frm kk.. eventually im nw become a happy and active fellow.. no more tension.. im feel like im bcome a new person after i changed my old image to a new different look, feel like i just born.. hahaha.. today still working, nearly finish my asgment.. huray!!!! still have 1 month left, i can meet my family.

i need to control not buy clothers and others cause mega sales is coming soon, must spend as many as i can!! wahahaha!! must be scold by mom, i know tat! nevermind, thats good too.. hahaha.. my sis not in kl, she cant accompany me!! i cant go out by myself, cause i never been there bfore, dono who can accompany me there!! huhu..

not much i ned to spend at kk, below 200(i think so). only going to cp bcause i wan to watch movie, nearly half year not watch movies, cause at labuan no place to watch(boring tau!!), my cousin and i planing watch d kungfu panda, v though d movies nw is playing in d cinema but.. huhu.. Apparently v need to watch others movie, so v plan watch Indiana Jones and The Kingdom. Hey guys!! this movie is a little silly, some what cheesy, more than a little incredulous, but also a whole lot of fun to watch. Funny and some crazy action that u will not imagine to!!

Ohhh, and bfore i forget, remember at all times - its Indiana Jones. So just sit back, switch off the the logical side of your mind, bring along a healthy dose of nostalgia, and just enjoy yourself, for goodness sake.